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Hello beautiful people!
How y'all doing?
I'm so sorry I haven't updated the blog because I was busy with uni and dance stuff.
Now that I finally have free time, I'll use it wisely to relax and think back to my roots.
My background, how I grow up, my degree in fashion, why I started doing this very blog, what I have become into today.
Meet my 2013 self! (with my mini-me)
I've grown up in an ordinary Chinese family with 2 brothers and a sister, believe it or not i used to be a tomboy.
I don't like shopping or dressing up and I don't have a care in the world.
I like sports and love to laugh hysterically in school.
But everything slowly changed when I was in middle school.
Started to love dancing, caring about my appearance and became a hardcore K-pop fan until today.
Dancing has been a really big part of my whole life, I used to 'not like' ballet from young cause I'm not that graceful and I don't have balance like the other girls, but I do love moving and gliding across the floor with music.
However in middle school, I had a best friend who introduced me to an amazing genre in dance which I never knew before, hiphop.
I know it's a huge turn changing from one genre to another cause both seem to be in each end of the spectrum, but nonetheless, I was hooked.
So, you can say that I didn't learn the basics properly but I was definitely on fire for it.
I strive to learn as much as I can from her and show to people what I got.
The result being I joined the dance team for an annual basketball competition between schools for 2 years in a row from 2009 to 2010.
2010 was definitely a year to remember, both our school's boys basketball team and the dance team got into the finals!
We didn't win but the experience I faced with the whole family of players and dancers was unforgettable! #GOTEAM
Following up after middle school, I got in to the dance team for the same competition for high school level and man, it was literally the best year for as long as I was dancing.
(please ignore the McDonalds cup hahahaha)
My family of 13 members including our teacher/big brother/mom(?) were inseparable.
Sure we had drama here and there every now and then, but that what makes the family ONE.
Dancing builds character and provoke passion more than anything I knew.
This pair of basketball jersey really means a lot to me, they taught me so many life lessons and to keep my core, my original intentions in life.
Moving on...
Middle to high school life changes the way I look at myself and made me care more about appearance.
To make a start was difficult for me.
The habits I had was basically impossible to change.
But slowly, it kinda grows on me.
Not long after, I was experimenting with all sorts of beauty products, exploring clothes and even learning one or two things about hair.
All sorts of things happen (let's just say trials and so many errors), I like to think they're all part of the fun.
I learned to know myself more from the outside and why do I have to take care of it.
Not that appearance is everything, but I think presenting yourself nicely is very important.
To you and to others as well.
Long story short, I didn't finish high school because I had to go study abroad.
I thought I was gonna leave my whole life behind in Indonesia, the comfort of my home, family, and friends; and just be miserable and friendless in Melbourne.
I wasn't scared or anything, I was just worried cause I suck at making new friends.
I thought I was just gonna be that one awkward Asian girl who sits and eats alone and people are gonna judge (me basically being paranoid -_-)
I wasn't forced to go, but I feel going abroad was the path I had to take.
And it's indeed the right one.
I started my uni life with a foundation course in RMIT taking its design stream.
My life was introduced to many different sides of arts that I never knew before.
I learned so much, about arts, history, people, emotions, and more.
I made tons of multi-cultural friends (because they started talking to me first yay! *tears of joy*).
I got a scholarship.
I also made a lot of new Indonesian friends, both in uni and in church.
It's stressful sometimes, but it was all for good reasons.
And when it seems that it couldn't get any better, I became best friends with someone who is a complete opposite of the introverted me.
She sparks the spirit inside of me to pursue art and especially fashion even further.
She gives great advice and she's really funny hahaha
I couldn't even imagine what if I didn't met her then.
Our friendship is the thing that got me started on all of this!
and these aren't even near a quarter of the number of shoots we did together.
I've always wanted to do ootd or outfit photoshoots ever since I started liking fashion and styling.
This keeps my passion alive.
I know that some of you may think that matching clothes together and taking pics are normal or even weird.
It actually means a lot.
Every single style put together using different elements, what worked and what doesn't, solving problems, combining fashion and photography, angling, composition, etc.
It excites me so much.
There's no end, it goes on forever, endless possibilities, and creativity at its best!
You can create anything and inspire people through the clothes you wear and the photographs you take.
It's that simple yet it's so amazing.
Passion drives me to do my best in everything, especially in my degree.
I want to develop my creativity and push the boundaries of what is design in my head, but still root to my core.
Every person had their own take on what is fashion and how they look at it.
That what makes fashion so diverse.
To differentiate myself from them is indeed challenging.
I recently experience failure and thank God that it happened to me.
Because failing's a part of learning.
I learned that I need to push myself even harder in every work that I do in every single subject.
I also learned to work out my priorities and managing time.
Each subject are different yet the same, they're all related and there's tons of things to be considered.
Just thinking about it drives me nuts sometimes.
Learning how to design clothes in many different ways, figuring out every line and curve of the design, consider fabrications, make them in a certain way to evoke
certain emotions, the craftsmanship, effort and time put into
every garment.
It seems insane, but it's what I love to do.
The dress above is my final work after 1 year of learning in university, I know it's not perfect but I put my whole effort into it.
I say that I'm a very proud fashion designer to make this from scratch.
"What if I fall? Oh but my darling, what if you fly?" - Erin Hanson
Nobody's perfect and not all of us can perfectly realize the potential deep inside.
Up until now I still can't determine what is it that I want to accomplish out of the many things I learned.
My mind changes every single time I think of different things, second-guessing, and sometimes just clueless.
I'm praying and waiting everyday for Him to show me the light.
That missing piece to my answer my questions.
I think I've written enough of the things I want to share.
I hope through this special post, I can relay the passion and sincerity to you guys.
If you have dreams, by all means chase it.
Reach it with your full on effort.
I believe if you push yourselves hard enough, it'll happen all by itself.
Thanks for reading until the end.
Hope it helps in anyway possible.
Thank you.
Photographs taken by various people.
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